I was offered to do our Rituxan infusion in the infusion center. Hmmm. I love my own bed. Sleeping is so nice. But having a flash back to last week, I had to insist on an overnight infusion. I don't care what it cost. I don't care who is annoyed. I don't care what needs to be rearranged. It has to be this way for the good of my little man. And what a little man he is becoming. He is slowly but surely maturing. He is able to pick out the good parts. He is able to pick out the bad parts. I was impressed with this. He knew he was going to be getting an IV, but looked forward to picking out a toy from the prize box. (If you have ever donated to Children's Hospital in Seattle, my little boy is the one you bring an joy to! A distraction that pulls him through having to have a large needle rammed into the back of his hand over and over again for the past two years.)
We first stopped off in clinic. Clinic is always fun. We have a really great fellow (intern) who did a great job examining him. She tested him thoroughly for strength. We chit chatted. Since we had just seen her six days ago not a lot had changed. She did mention she heard that I had called on Friday. Yes I did. I was having a little panic session because usually after a pulse of steroids and IVIG, he is pretty white. An angelic look comes over him. The flare he is in however didn't let this happen. He was redder than ever which made me so nervous. It took me right back to the beginning. I was just fearful he was going to get sicker with JDM. The nurse talked me down. Told me who was on call for the weekend. I was certain at the time he was going to need another pulse. I inquired about the weekend. Just wanted to let them know that I hated all of it and we may need to come back. But breathing and embracing a calm is something mothers have to do. I was close to pulling the emergency cord, (metaphorically speaking) but talking myself down, once again, my son has a disease.
I inquired about a bit information that our main rheumatologist mentioned last week. When giving IVIG and Rituxan at the same time, IVIG neutralizes Rituxan. Come again? Because the first 4 doses of Rituxan were all given with IVIG. I didn't want to discuss it at the time because my brain was still processing this. I didn't want to face. I came home and posted it on the JM Support Board. I felt a little guilty afterwards. It struck me, what if I didn't properly gather all the facts. I decided to wait to get the full explantion. Enter the senior rheumatologist. She explained that currently it is a theory. That this has not been proven, but if you think about how IVIG works and how Rituxan works it would make sense that the two cancel each other out. IVIG clings to antibodies to rid of them so they will stop going after his body. Rituxan is a antibody that clings to cells that cause inflammation. Hmmm. I hope I got that right. Don't quote me. Anyway, she further explained it is about a style. They have kids that with diseases that are treated with same medication who need to be treated quickly. They do not hesitate to give them together. They have seen Rituxan work but still its not know if it is doing its full job when giving with the IVIG. I kind of apologize to my JM Mommies but then again I don't because its not all together true or false.
Gary's calcium deposits have been on the move. I am a little baffled by they ones that are on the backs of his knees. They decreased in size but now have started giving him trouble on his skin. Like they are trying to exit. They have increased in size around his elbows as well. A new one has come in on the bottom side of his fore arm along the bone. It feels kind of big. The calcium on his bum is also bigger and showing signs of vascular eruption. I made that phrase up but in my terms, little purplish dots and rough skin around the calcium site. I did get some good pictures. Sadly, they are big enough to show up on camera now.
|I added the little blue arrows to point at some of the calcium deposits.|
|Calcinosis on the outside of his throat.|
|Waiting for orders, to wait for the IV team, to wait to get an IV. Anxiety.|
|Inflamed cuticles, burst capillaries, swollen fingers.|